A New Kind Of Treatment

November 3, 2013 in Uncategorized

03 November 2013

Yes, I haven’t been here for a while.  Can’t say it is because I’ve been too busy.  Because that’s not quite true.  I’ve been busy surviving.  And being in survival mode, means I’m flying below the radar.  Stay out of people’s way.  Do my own thing, mind my own business, just do what is needed to survive.

I’ve been off medication for about a month and then my doctor started me on something that is new on the market:  an injection.  It has been approved in some overseas countries and is used there, but it has not yet been approved in South Africa by the FDA.  I’m part of a trial study for the meds.  So far so good.

For the first time in years, I don’t have side-effects from medication.  In fact, the injection wasn’t sore.  It didn’t numb my muscles or left me in pain for days on end.  I have to go for blood tests and have an ECG done at least once a week at this stage (before it was twice a week), but that’s also good.  It’s helping me and it’s helping others.

There is ALWAYS HOPE to get better.  Bipolar disorder is not a death sentence.  Maybe, come to think of it, bipolar disorder is an opportunity to start a new life.  A different life.  One with lots of challenges.  But a life that can be lived to the fullest, no matter what.

Have a lovely week!

Love Your Loved Ones (LYLO)


Happy Angel Birthday!

August 24, 2013 in Uncategorized

24 August 2013

Today is my dear friend, Feenix’s birthday.  He was a blogger on 24.com for many years.  He died at the age of 49 of a heart attack.  Wish you were here today so I could wish you happy birthday, ya’ old git!  Missing you so much.  Happy angel birthday!  May you be surrounded by lots of kindness… and soft toys!  Thank you for being my bestest buddy.  LUT.


Being Kind To Yourself

August 19, 2013 in Uncategorized

Table Mountain as seen from Llundudno

Table Mountain as seen from Llundudno

19 August 2013

Sonneblom has been a bit lazy as of late.  I’ve been wanting to blog for ages, but I simply don’t get to do it.  Partly because I’m not feeling well and partly because I don’t really have anything to say.  Yet I have so MUCH to say!  Nonetheless, I’ve missed blogland and I’m back.

I took a short trip to Hout Bay yesterday and stopped at Llundudno, hence the photo.  I try to be kind to myself by taking trips like the one I took yesterday.  Get away and out of my daily routine and see something else.  See the panoramic view and not just the four walls of my office or my home.

If we are not kind to ourselves, we cannot really expect others to be kind to us.  Nobody but YOU can be kind to you.  My madness is driving me up the wall, but I try to stick to certain things.  Like being kind to me.  Granted, it doesn’t always work, but at least I feel as if I’m trying to do something and that I’m not just sitting on my bum, waiting for a miracle to come by and snatch me away and out of my reality.

Make it a challenge this week to be REALLY kind to YOU.




Happy Blogiversary!

July 3, 2013 in Uncategorized


03 July 2013

Five years ago, I pulled my guts together and opened this blog.  I was petrified, not knowing what to expect from a blogging community or what it would be like to have a blog.  What if nobody is interested in what I have to say?  What if the readers hates me?  Yet I carried on with this blog.  And today, five years later, it is still going strong.

I have met great people here and made wonderful friends.  I’ve met the burning bird Feenix (he passed away last year) and a magical gnome called GOS – Gnome Of Survival.  Not to forget about the other bloggers I’ve met from distant kingdoms, endless chats and in the end, cyber friendships.  People I would like to meet in person.

Thanks to each and everyone who is reading my blog.  Thanks for commenting on the stories about the sunflower fairy and her magical Qwerty forest.  Thanks for all the encouragement, a smiley face and wisdom you shared on my posts.  It is much appreciated.


Sonneblom & all the magical creatures in the Qwerty forest.

In the Qwerty Forest…

June 30, 2013 in Uncategorized

30 June 2013

In the Qwerty Forest there is a rumble and a mumble… There is a newcomer in the forest. A bad creature, maybe a friend of the evil two-faced queen… The creauture, a troll-like thing, is lurking in the shadows, waiting patiently to rear it’s ugly face and cause trouble…

In The Clinic Again

June 26, 2013 in Uncategorized

26 June 2013

Sonneblom did it again: she got herself admitted to a psychiatric clinic last Friday. Why? Because my madness got out of control. I wanted to commit suicide badly and in a way, I suppuse, I had to be protected from myself.

I am on new medication again and if all goes well, I may go home on Friday.

Go on, love your loved ones.


Do You See The Beauty?

June 2, 2013 in Uncategorized

02 June 2013

© KV

 Do you still see the beauty in the things around you, or are you so focused on your day to day living that you don’t see a thing?  

I try to see the beauty in things around me, no matter how small or insignificant they may be.  A flower, a smile, a kind gesture..  They carry me through the day…

Make an effort this week to look further than your day to day battle and see the beauty surrounding you.  You’ll be amazed at what you see.

Love Your Loved Ones


Bipolar Awareness Day

May 26, 2013 in Uncategorized

26 May 2013

Today is BIPOLAR awareness day.  If you don’t know anything about bipolar disorder, read up about it.  If you have bipolar disorder, share your story with someone, educate at least one person about the illness.  Don’t be ashamed to tell your story and to share your journey.

In about 6 weeks time, I celebrate my 5th year in blogland.  I’ve decided to start a blog about bipolar disorder to educate people, to help myself, to raise awareness.  And I’ve thought it’ll be SO great if I can manage to reach one person.  Just one…  Well, by sharing my story and the stories of the Qwerty Forest, I’ve reached LOTS of people.  I never received a lot of comments, but I know people read my blog.  And they can relate.

I am not ashamed of having bipolar disorder and never will be.

Love your loved ones.


It’s Okay To Be Different

May 21, 2013 in Uncategorized

The photo was taken in the Company Gardens, Cape Town.  There are currently two albino squirrels living there.  

 21 May 2013

We’re always SO scared of being different than anybody else.  We want to fit in, blend in with the group.  Yet we all want others to know how unique we are.

When you live with a mental illness like bipolar disorder, you must know that being different comes with the territory.  It’s something you cannot fight.  Like the mood swings.  It is something other people don’t have and those mood swings, no matter how well controlled, can be violent.  You never know how you’re going to feel when you wake up in the morning.  You can never plan too far in advance.  Hell, I don’t even plan from one day to the next, because I ever so often had to cancel plans or pull out of plans.  You take life day by day, one step at a time.

It is okay to be different, something I still have to learn to fully accept.  It’s a challenge, a difficult reality to face.  But it is MY reality and I have to face it somehow.  Of course I want to fit in.  Yet, in a strange way, it’s also sort of nice to be different.  Being different is okay.

Love Your Loved Ones



New Experiences

May 12, 2013 in Uncategorized

12 May 2013

I’ve had a couple of new experiences since Friday evening. I went to an art movie theatre with a friend. I sat in a pub listening to live music and yesterday I went to an outdoor market I’ve never been to before. With a friend. Afterwards we had coffee at a garden restaurant, filled with old stuff. I think I need to have a new experience today too…



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